I was at a meeting yesterday and several of the attendees were cracking on a 20-year-old girl who was saying how twenty is a horrible age to be. It was funny, and it is something people do all the time. It of course, got some people reminiscing and wishing that they were back at a certain age.
I said it yesterday, and I'll say it again now. I don't want to be 20 again. I don't want to be any age I was again. Yes, I have had a lot of fun, and yes, I have made regrettable mistakes I'd like to change but nobody gets a do over and I'm completely fine with it. The best time for me is now.
Sure, I may have more responsibilities to think about. Sure, I can't go out into the wee hours of the night and have enough energy to soldier through the next day at work, but I don't mind it at all. I'm not living pay cheque-to-pay cheque, I have a good head on my shoulders and I'm completely happy to think of where I am in my life right now. I wouldn't be here if not for all the gallivanting across the world, hazy nights I have little recollection of, and the nonchalance of youth. I liked my life then, but I love my it now.
At 20 I thought I knew it all. Now, I know I barely know anything at all. At 20 I wanted to change the world, and now, I know I can't change it but I can do my little bit to make it that much better. 20 is not going to be the peak of your life, hell, I don't think I'm even at my peak now. All I know is I'm content. Things will never be perfect, and things will never go as I plan it to be and the best thing I can do is keep my head, heels and standards high and keep moving forward.
I think it is true - it gets better with age. I love that I have four different jobs in four different companies, one of which, [which I will announce soon], I know will take my career to heights it has never been before, my partner and I may not be together but our love span the miles between us that distance means so little when someone means so much. My relationship with my family is better than ever before.
Maybe when my health starts to deteriorate [and God, I hope not], or when grey hair start to appear, I'd think otherwise, but I'm having a ball living my life the age I am now.
There is not one thing I'd like to change about Now. My time is Now.